Another Step forwards

On Friday we had our initial assesment appointment and we were lucky to meet a lovely social worker who we spend over 2 hours talking to. We covered so many topics including our lives, backgrounds, families, friends, hobbies, finances, the cats and our home - she even took a full tour and looked over every room. It did feel very strange to talk in that much detail about so many personal things but it was also nice to reflect on just how lucky we are.

Alright we can't have biologcal children of our own but when we looked we have wonderful families and friends who are always there for us plus we have a lovely home, stable jobs and, most importantly, we have each other. There are so many people in this world that don't have these things that I feel it is worth taking a moment to remember what I do have and to be thankful for it.

Back to tha appointment - the only thing that the social worker could see as a concern was my weight. OK, my BMI is higer than it 'should' be according to those who profess that BMI is the be all and end of of weight and being over weight but never minding that I do have some to shift and so that is my new plan whilst we are waiting for the report and then, hopefully, to move forwards.

So, the next steps are to wait for the report to come back from the social worker along with a letter detailing what next. Our hope is that this letter will also be an invitation to the 'Preparing to Adopt' course which we need to do and hopefully it will be the next one which they think will be in about 6 months time.

Fingers crossed.

Discharge

It has been a while since I have posted to here and this is because I have been waiting for one final thing - my discharge from all fertility treatment. I managed to get this last week and the feeling of relief was immense. I could have skipped out of the clinic, out of the hospital and away from the last 3 years of my life. I did feel a bit sorry for my consultant, it was almost like he didn't want me to go but he was out of options that I was prepared to consider and that means there was no other path for him to follow. It was a comfort to me that I had accepted the necessity and could smile about it.

We managed to celebrate that evening - a home cooked meal and a glass of wine might not seem like the best celebration but it was like turning back time to before. I know that nothing will erase the memory of the journey we have undertaken but my hope is that, given time, it can become fuzzy and the pain of it all will lessen. I am also hopeful that the 'old me' will be back to stay - the me that can enjoy life and see the positives. The me that wants to get out of bed in the morning and wants to see what excitment the day brings.

So, our next step is us waiting to receive an initial appointment with the Local Authority Adoption Service Social Worker - we are waiting for a call back as I type and I can't wait to get the ball rolling and moving onwards towards the future.